| THIS IS WEEK IS HELL
shoot me?
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| THIS IS WEEK IS HELL
shoot me?
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| i miss him, and it makes me crryy.
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| ok so today i visited EHS. it was pretty cool. i liked it way better then Landmark. I guess thats where im going. Im so happy I mean like I know where Im going. I know that you dont care but i do. I thought oh shit im going to Landmark be life and friends. But now I get to start fresh with all new friends. I like it. =] Like I mean I know that my friends at cb i wont have forever. Well, Ill always have Ashley and Jenna. But its going to be nice to start new and be like hi im sophie. i mean i know people know me as Emmas little sister but who cares. Im cool with that. Im just glad I know where Im going. So the classes are 84-85 minutes. Very cool. and there are four classes a day. with a lunch. and hmm what else..not a ton of homework- or so i saw. and mm it was pretty much like your normal school. just like any other high school, and thats exactly what i want. see if i went to Landmark, i would be the resisdent, cheerleading, girl and at ehs i can just be me. what is what i want. and im going to go to EHS with NOO tutoring or anything. Im going to go as a NORMAL kid. dyslexia is not going to get the best of me this time.
thanks cb but im done now.
that was prob. the most stupidest blog i ever wrote but whatever. |
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| im bord. later on i have dance. hmm it feels like friday.. anyway tomorrow i have to retake a test...yuckk. oh well. at least im trying. today i had testing...i dont think ill ever want to speak agian. first it was like educational shit so once that was all finished i went to speech testing...which isnt finished yet but i know that for now on ill be really quiet. yah i stuff to say but apparently..well just nevermind. im so mad. and sad...and miersable. i feel like the days are going and the months are going and the world is spinning but im like asleep for this or something. like the worlds going on and im not. i cant believe this is going so fast. every day..every month. soon [june 7th] ill be graduating from cb. i mean i never really expected that but its here. i remember being in third grade watching other people walk down and i remember thinking i wonder hows its going to be when i do that. and i remember in fourth grade the teacher whispered in my ear ''they were in my class once; soon that will be you'' and i remember thinking wow. time really does fly. i guess my mind is elsewhere. maybe its in november...nov. 24 2006. maybe its there. or maybe its in feburary..feb. 2. 2007. i dont know where it is. its getting harder and harder to focus on everything..but im trying to find people to talk to and no one understands. i try so hard to talk to someone and they dont get it; at all. no one. not you, not my mom, not my sister, not my friends. no one. im in a world where only three days happen. one after another. im in a world where theres happiness two days and a miserable day the next. and its dark and scary and lonely. theres this world...
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